16th of December

Degree isn't my standard, it's harder than Diploma. I was trying my best on doing both assignments without stepping out of my home, unless for meals. I was so stressing with it due to I don't even know how to do or what should do to those assignments. I'm damn worry, but my friend just told me take a short time to release, because my brain was jammed terribly. Stress and tension. My brain no more multi-function. I done halfway and sent e-mail to lecturer and asked 'how should I continue with these?!', because I lost and felt helpless. I don't know my life is too busy or I become lazy, may be both?! Degree is what I want?! No. That is what we need in the cruel life. You cannot say I'm too negative thinking, because all the friends around me are taking Degree course, I could say at least two hundred of my secondary school friends. Degree holder could be found anytime and anywhere, like some people said 'on the street'. I will feel myself so hopeless if I fail to do that. =( I need a guide anyway. I have a fantastic crazy thinking these few days, go and learn mixing, scratching and beat juggling, learn how to produce music with my own beat then to be somebody in the club. LOLs.. By the way, I feel this job is full of fun and entertainment but unacceptable and impossible happen in my life. I found out one academic which having this course and they provide job replacement after that. *STOP* Please allow me to scream here.. Ahhhhhhh! I don't like last and coming Christmas! I wanna FREEDOM and without any BURDEN!  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Chor Ban, please wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up!  Wake up! Sorry, just too tension.. ")

Dear Loveliest Santa Clause:- Only one in my wishlist, PASS the PAPER. Nothing more. Thanks! =)