29th of July

The third day morning of OLDP, we did the most worst presentation in my life. It was because when I saying the point of 'Caring', I recall back what was happened in the second day. That's Edward and Wooi Lin were high fever and sent to hospital by an ambulance. Seen ambulance arrived, I asked Yuen Kay goes also to release my worries. After that presentation, I straightly went to outside and sat down to calm down myself. When I were outside, I called one of my team mate to call me when any activity is going on. I'm sitting in a small cafe beside the hall, think how could these incident will be happen with Penang Branch Reliance College student?! I think lots and trying to control myself. Fine, she called me, I go in to hall again. That's closing ceremony, I was the volunteer to accept my team participation certificate. Follow on, they announce THE BEST LEADER awards for each team. I got the award and the third of Overall, but I'm not so happy and shown a fake smile with the camera. What feeling I've, is always showing on my face. During the discussion about the drama sketch, Nicholas was not giving any comments on it. But, it was RUSH UP of time last minute, he just says this and that cannot or what something else. As a normal team mate of them also angry about his style and sit quietly there. I'm the leader that day, I should say something in this situation, I'm mad also, but I walk away take a water and calm down myself and said chat later during meeting. After the ceremony, all of JB and Penang student were sent to YMCA, KL by a bus. Inside the bus, that JB student so naughty, want making me a boner and playing so many game, but I'm so lucky~!! Arrived YMCA, I left my luggage inside my room and quickly went out for searching the COLD FEVER to treat those who suffering with fever. So unfortunately, it was Sunday and no pharmacy is available for business and I rush to how many shop that's nearby also the same. I went back with buy nothing and seeing them suffer. Before I step in YMCA, I saw Cin Dee smoke beside the only one fence of YMCA, I'm so behh syiOk with her that moment, because not more than 12 hours she deliveries 'I WANT TO QUIT SMOKE AND SUPPORT GOVERNMENT CHAMPAGNE', how many guys beat hands for her even the Jojo. But now, she stands there, still have JB students.... in my heart, why she doesn't act the WHOLE ACTION until she was returned to Penang Island just smoke, still have JB student there and they know you. When I step in the fence, I ignored her and walk to lobby. Recall back, I should be not meddling in this case, because she is not influence anything and just influence the fake of Penang Branch students. Just leave it and hope she will QUIT soon. After that, we went to Berjaya Times Square again, I just bought a pair of shoe because that's impossible to me for wear a sandals to walking around what. Went to Education Fair which held at Heng Ee High School. For the main point of me, not only promote Reliance College, are seeing my friends and teaching them how to choose a college and study atmosphere. I was so enjoying there. After the fair, we went to Gurney Pastamania have out lunch and Redbox for K until 5.30pm. Afternoon today, went to college, I never tell Anthony that I've awarded THE BEST LEADER, but Cin Dee helped me to shout up. This award, I just want low key and don't want to let other know. She told to Anthony and he came beside me and said a 'Congratulation' and shaking my hand. Not feel to attend Accounting today, like a dead fish~ Chat so many with my team mate tonight through MSN, yeppi~ but, I'm still worries with my assignment because I don't know how should I start...

Share the question 1 with your guy, that's wrote by my team mate about me...

Inciting is helping others to stay in focus. A good leader must help all the followers to join into the team, so that can done a good job easily. For example, our team leader for 2^nd day - Chor Ban was always give encourage to team and easy our joint into the group. He always spoke out the slogan loudly. This situation can let us feel that so excited and be more confident to eliminate disturbance.
Forging is directing the efforts. A leader must shape the organization’s efforts to do the work. For example, in 2^nd day we had to done outdoor activity. There are included Electric Fence, Hanoi Tower, Management Challenge, Tsunami and Telematch. Those activities the 2^nd day leader – Chor ban done a good job. Because he given us a clearly instruction to completed the difficult activity. For example, the 2^nd day leader – Chor Ban during the activity Tsunami. The Tsunami is about a pillar with many hole and the person in charge will put a ping-pong inside the pillar, so that we must have a good team work to cover all the hole and put the water until full let the ping-pong out. In this activity, the 2^nd day leader – Chor Ban given us a good directed to cover all the hole, finally we take a good time to complete this activity. And in another activity the 2^nd leader – Chor Ban also playing a good leader role to bring us completed all the outdoor activities. Because he doing this part very well, so that we get the champion in part of Outdoor Activity.

我的组第一天leader叫Lay Theng其实他还错的可是他适合做一个领导者，怎样说呢？他看上去给人的第一感觉是他是做领导者的材料，或许是他没有信心吧又或许是他还是很认识我们，我对他是没有什么comment 啦因为他没有什么东西给我‘写’哈哈…but 相反地，我们的第二天 leader-chor ban反而好过lay theng因为第一天的事差 多都是他在做比如说想口号，我们的口号是blue2 are you ready？(yes, we are ready)go go go(go go go)fight fight fight(fight fight fight)we go we fight we win…yeah。他真的一个很好的领导者，很照顾队里面的每个人，要怎样写他才好呢？比如说在玩那个telematch时他很拼命的在喊口号和别组斗看谁最大声而且他脑筋转得很快，他能一下子就想到要怎样反攻别组的话，他即使喊道喉咙痛，喊道没有声音他依然继续的激励我们组的士气，就像人家讲的一句话‘输人不输阵’，还有在玩那个爬地上的游戏因为他是leader所以他一定要玩，由于他是最后一个所以开始时他先观察过后就指挥那些先爬的人结果听他指挥的全部都过不用爬两次只有一个不合作坚持要自己爬的结果就只有他爬三次过后终于到我们的leader了，他想也不想就直接趴下去爬了，我猜当他在玩这个游戏的时候一定是心不甘愿下才爬的谁叫他是leader呢？没办法，当他爬到中间就快要出来时他不知道被什么东西叮到手而且还不小心把沙弄进眼睛，我们全部叫他从旁边出来可是他不肯坚持继续爬下去，过后当他的头一出来时由那个急救人员直接拖他出来，可是他一出来先是檫他的鞋先而不是伤口 …一个爱干净的男生过后我们回去时他才讲说他爬到最后时是真的没有力了，真可怜他的手而且他的手还是敏感的可是他还是爬啊没有像有些人借口多多！过后，当我们…

These two wrote from different people, but they never finished yet...

BLUE 2, ARE YOU READY?! ( YES! ) GO! GO! GO! ( GO! GO! GO! ) FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! ( FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! ) WE GO! WE FIGHT! WE WIN! YEAH~

27th of July

A short trip of 5 days Outdoor Leadership Development Programme organized by Reliance College finished finally. Early morning about 915am of 23rd, I arrived the bus terminal at Sungai Nibong and waiting for the 10 o'clock bus to straight South down to Puduraya at Kuala Lumpur. Before the day we go, Yuen Kay was sicked actually, but she has no choice to excuse herself, because this trip is 50% marks assignment of the total Management subject. About 2 somethings near 3 o'clock, we've arrived Puduraya and met the guy who will bring us go to YMCA. OH MY GOD!! What the guy did!! Boon Siong never called for taxi and asking us for the LRT and then change to monorail. He wants to save his own cost because a taxi can carry maximum 4 guys. 053 was 11 guys + Shaun=12 guys. 12/4=3 taxi and he has to pay for a taxi to carry only himself. So selfish and brainless. We come from Penang Island, leave our hometown for a 5 days and not 3 days, so that our luggage is larger and larger of course. All of us, bringing our luggage and walk a quite long stair and road. This is so BAD~ ! After check-in to YMCA, I noticed my right hand which used for carrying my luggage just now was inflamed. Seen Yuen Kay in fever, so she stay in the room and we go to Berjaya Times Square for making a survey and decided SHOP during Sunday night when we return from Pahang to Kuala Lumpur. While we're window shop, Biki was stopped beside a watch stall and we all also return back to find her and eyes enjoying the watch also. Biki started want to buy, follow by Lih Shyh, me and Wooi Lin. 4 of us bought 5 watches and another one is for Yuen Kay and Wen Han not going to join us buy one. We got the 10% discount from that stall. wahhh~ so happy with my new watch. **** SHiNiNG **** We go back by monorail from Imbi to KL Central. We've to awake early morning when the sun isn't awake. That's 5 o'clock and the bus will leave from YMCA at 6.30am and arrive to KL branch Reliance College with wearing our colour T-shirt, for mine one is Blue, group 2. I've forget what time we arrived the Pekam Plantation Resort, but I know it was late to be there according the master schedule. We arrived and walk a quite long distance to the hall with carrying our larger luggage to there, my hand KENA again. aiiks~ when group with members, nothing want to say. When they're choosing team leader, I just saying this and that. Our assistance Hui Mein from Johor Bahru said don't be every time is KL student do leader only, try to be shifting. She also wants to help up her our branch actually. This is usual sense. I've been chosen as the leader for the second day. I think out a slogan for my team, that's ' GO! GO! GO! FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! WE GO! WE FIGHT! WE WIN! ' so positive and easy to remember. About the first day, I'm just coordination what my leader want to do, but I don't know what she wants to do. In the night, we went for a Jungle Walk. We cannot bringing our torch light into the jungle and that's no moonlight can support us. Before we walk-in, they keep away our torchlight and no torchlight we can use when we're walking. What the facilitator said, we have to come out by A CANDLE. What's?! When that's no light, nothing we can see. But we went out safety finally. Second day, is the day for me show how I lead a team. Lead a team, a piece of cake for me. BUT!! Nicholas born 1988 and I'm 1991, he so impulsion. When we're chatting and discussing about the drama, he is quietly and sitting there at morning 6 o'clock. We finalize the drama, he says have to change this and that suddenly. I've some HOT, I leave there a moment and say nothing. What he wants to do, I leave this task for him and follow what he said. I bited by somethings during I climb on the soils and glasses. I dislike this activity, because it'll make dirt on my clothes and body. aiiks~ have to do also, because I was the leader of the day what. I've no energy to write already. Continues another day...

Blue 2, kEEP iN tOUCh~

22nd of July

Early of yesterday morning, went to Adecco there for an interview. Success the interview, got a Data Entry job, but not so happy. Firstly, I planned have a meet for HFH group after the exam, so now MUST to shift it earlier before my exam. It was because I've to attend a short training at 4 pm sharp. Secondly, lastly and mainly, my heart feel so repel, may be I never prepared for work. After the interview, I left there and reach to B.Jambul Complex windows shop and I bought 2 pairs of socks. I enough socks already, still buy it for what~ ?! After that, I went to the MacDonald have a lunch and gets home. When I was online, I got the news from somebody, one or two of my HFH discussion group was said that they don't need to do one, because I've done it earlier. Sure, no one is great and cannot be mad. Morning just now, I noticed Ai Ling was set her PM as no class today, I thought that whole of 054 have to attend a lecture, but the ans is NO. That's only for the last batch of second intakes. Felt so regret with those who so especially came to college to have a short meeting. Fine, I taught them how to do an assignment my heart was not enduring and said not feeling so well in my heart when some one of this group said that. I don't want to know who is he/she. I just want to say it out, because that's so unfair for a person do all the research. Not more than 30 minutes, dismissed. I continues do my preparation for the mid-term of Accounting. After the exam, we went to the office for a short training and practical. Just a simply task have to do. Check the cheques and key-in the amount of cheques. Day past day, have to go for Outdoor Leadership Training tomorrow. Wish all of us have a sweet journey and no blogging these few day until the day I return back to Penang Island.

Wish 053 having a sweet journey~

19th of July

It has been a long period that I never update my blog here. Every morning when I wake up, walk to the living room's windows, and look forwards to the building of Komtar. I noticed the haze has been in a serious situation recently. I can't saw clearly the building just now, I shocked. I dislike this kind of atmosphere, the quality of the fresh air was dropped downwards. I past my life with steam-ing these few weeks, because the schedule was FULL and I've nothing to learn up so. Something that not related with me, I joined also. Such likes, the Flag Day of St.John Ambulance, I went back my secondary school and helped them to organize and plan this and that. I spent my 2 days of weekend on it. About others, I forgot already. Well~ Biki's birthday today, after the final of Basic Arline Ticketing, we went to Gurney Plaza, dine in a restaurant. The atmosphere is good, but not a prefect ten. About the exam for today, I don't know how to ans many questions. Ohhh~ recalled some of Lih Shyh's birthday memories also. That day, I think is a full day lecture if not mistaken, after that we went to Redbox k~. I'm still remember the last part before all of us dismiss. It was so crazy. I'm always remember myself, I was 18 years old now, should be more mature and no more crazy. That night, we were high inside the cabin, some more I screamed when singing that song. The most important is, the guy who births on today, should be happy. Koon Yong has sms me just now. He said he is so angry because from he went to National Service until now, he never received any message from me. It so sad, because after he went, I'm busying with my personal and college life. I neglected him and my secondary friends. He sent this kind of message, made me so ... . Another message from Chun Boon, he invited me go out at 12 midnight, I also excused myself. He said, have a long time we never go out midnight. I'm still remember what we did during secondary Friday or Saturday or both night. He, Siew Ming and I went out, until 3 or 4 midnight just return home. Where we went?! Of course is take the charcoals, snacks and some beverages went to the small beach that opposite the Tropical Fruit Farm and between the Batu Ferringhi and Teluk Bahang. Went there looking the stars, hearing song with my small handset speakers, and chit-chat enjoying there. There is dark, so we always bring the charcoal and burning there, such like a small camp fire. ~.~''' After that, we will go to another place for a small supper, mostly we always go is Gurney Drive, because straight down from there. Or else, we'll go to the famous midnight food stall. aiiks~ how romance is it to see the stars are clearly on the beach with the charcoal. These memories, I'll remember it forever...

Wishing Biki Happy Birthday~
Friends, I've never forget you all...

29th of June

HATEFUL !! My mood was swing these few days. I done my assignment, have many guy wish I can help them and send answer to them. As a what I know, assignment should not be sharing with each other. Firstly, I'll harm them become more lazier. Second, I'll take the flame for burning myself, because once lecturer marks the answer are same, both of us will be straightly get zero mark. I'm trying to control myself to help them, but I'm still sent the answer that I did to them. It is dangerous and no benefit will be I get from that. Assignment, I done, also gone. Have a part of question, I never wrote down when I'm copying what from the white board last time when Anna Khor gave. When I arrived college that moment, someone was borrowed my assignment for a look, just found that. It was too late, because 2 o'clock already and exam will be start at 3 o'clock sharp. I just left it and submit. Don't try to think anymore on it, hope exam will help me get some marks to fill these mistakes. I done my notes 12 something just now, after print out, I straightly reach to college. What I read, I can memorize it as well as I can. So fast, 3 o'clock came, we all sat inside the Room 1 to attend our final of Malaysian Studies. When I open the paper, I was shock~!! I don't know how to ans the first question, how can I continue to do the second question?! Almost the setting of paper, the few of the front part is belong to easy one. I saw the paper, I think how I crazy to replay and replay what I was recorded when she's giving the key area. I can't accept the true, why she does like that?! A one hundred ringgit, bought Anna's moral integrity. I can say that, I replay it 5 times at least. She never seen the paper, why she still giving us the key area?! She can be likes Janny, doesn't give us straightly what. Have a guy, asked me to betray my conscience morning just now. I betrayed myself so many times, I can't continue it anymore. Some more, this is a big mistake. In case, I helped you, that's not only involve you and me will getting troubles, others will inconvenient. I'm so sorry, you've made me feel you aren't observing and obeying the school rules and regulations. Anyways, many things have happened these few days of course included today. It had made me, no mood to study anymore temporary. I'll be attend another exam tomorrow, that's Advance of Airline Ticketing, more and more calculation like subject of Account. No tips given. I don't know what I wrote until here, say a 'sorry~' to anyone who read.

Grey season in my heart, is still going on...

25th of June

I went to college this morning as usual again. While the class will be start on 10 o'clock, so I 9.30 something arrived there. Attended the last lesson for TAT 03 before to the mid-term exam. What has Janny gave, say truly I don't know how to settle it, always referring the previous exercise. I was so worrying, because during exam, what can I take into the class to refer?! Some more, Biki was face blacked early in the morning, I would like to ask what was happening with her, but I just quite and look towards her. In the end, I knew what problem she facing and settle down finally when we all came back from Hot Bowl. In the class, Biki, Lih Shyh, Jia Ming and me were not paying any attention in class, just chit-chat and playing at the back there. After the class finished, Jia Ming and Shue Mei got their marks from Anthony's hand. So, I also ask Anthony how many marks that I get, he said "NOT SO GOOD" these three words that I heard. What?! "NOT SO GOOD" = BAD exactly. so down~ I've tried my best to do for this subject, because I heard some senior was failed and retake it again. To reduce my worries, I took it as a challenge better than surrender. I paid concentration during his teaching, I spent a lot of my time on the assignment, I did notes for exam before, I did how much on it. In the end what I get is "NOT SO GOOD" from Anthony's speeches. I can't accept it fully, even 1% from this words. When I want to ask him future, the staffs from Hard Rock have came. He needed to chat with them and I've no choice, so go back to home. Marketing, I knew how many percent that I absorb, but should not be "NOT SO GOOD" what. It hurts. Hurt into my thinking badly. "NOT SO GOOD", cross over my bottom line. It made me so moodily. I would like to say a sorry here to those msn with me and I haven't reply anything just now. I'm sorry...

100% that you paid ≠ 100% rewards that you'll receive...

23rd of June

Past a month with my birthday already. I'm still remember 22nd of May, my classmate were celebrated with me in the college. The night of 23rd May, hang out with secondary friends. Anyways, thanks with anythings that you all did. I never make myself late again for today after bought the breakfast for my classmates. The Advance Airline Ticketing, what a subject like a Account. It always non-stop of counting and shifting the number. After that, we enjoyed our lunch at Thai Food. We returned to college for attend the Basic Airline Ticketing. So confusing with both Basic & Advance syllabus come together. It was because some of the syllabus will be crash. During the end of Basic Airline Ticketing, Janny said we all 053 so lazy, and influence Jia Ming who always sit together me. Continuously, she chat about the Degree course. She said the course for 2 years later from 20 thousands will raise to 28 thousands. Besides that, she also gave information that, if Penang branch Reliance College less than 15 intakes for Degree course, all the students have to move southwards to HQ=KL branch. I think, that's less percentage to have the Degree course at Penang branch, because I noticed this year that's only one student registration for Degree.

I'm always trying to make my life more meaningful~